without a shadow of a doubt

When I was about 10 years old I was being physically and verbally abused by my stepfather. He stomped on me, tried to drown me, and would say horrible things to me. One night after one of his attacks, I laid in bed and prayed. I didn't pray out loud it was more of a mental prayer. And I kept asking God over and over again "God, does anyone love me?" until I fell asleep. The next day I went with my godmother to a car dealership in weatherford, tx many miles away from where I lived at the time. While waiting at the dealership, a man walked in and walked up to me and asked to pray with me. I was honestly a little freaked out because it was kinda random that some guy would ask to pray with me. But I agreed to pray with him. After praying with me he looked at me and told me "You prayed last night and asked God if anyone loves you, and god wants you to know he loves you". I was so taken aback.... what did he just say? How could this man who doesn't know me, doesn't even know my name, or what I am going through how could he know what I prayed the night before. I was very young at that time and I tried to rationalize that day in my mind for many years, I thought maybe he just made a good guess, maybe he is crazy, or maybe I am crazy for believing.
BUT I now know that God saw me hurting, he knew at that moment in my life I truly believed no one loved me. And he cried with me that night, it hurt him to see me cry, he wanted me to know it wasn't true that he does loves me. But he knew the only way I would know it was him speaking to me is if he told this man what I had prayed.
After this, I started to seek the truth, I was drawn to God like never before wanting to know more, I was confused as a child how I was going to seek something I couldn't see but I did find him by constantly reading his word. I strayed away from God during my teen years and after many years of heartache and disappointments, I doubted God so many times. But when in doubt I remember that day the man told me what I prayed the night before. And I know God is real, without a shadow of a doubt. And no one can convince me otherwise. To imagine God is the ruler of ALL things, but he still wants a relationship with little ole me. He still loves me.
Be encouraged my brother and sister God loves you and nothing can come between that.

Comments

[amymford]

WOW. I've never heard that story before ... i wanna buy your book.